Cops probing six-page letter written by Jiah Khan

MUMBAI: A six-page letter allegedly left behind by actor Jiah Khan disclosed what she went through days before her suicide. A copy of the letter, which is also in TOI's possession, is currently being scrutinized by the Juhu police.


Jiah's family has provided her handwriting samples to investigators and are trying to locate her personal diary. The note states: "No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood. Things were looking up for me here.

But is it worth when you constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love wants to abuse you or threatens to hit you... or cheats on you by telling other girls they are beautiful ... or throws you out of their house when you have nowhere to go. You have come to them out of love or when they lie to your face or they make you chase after them in their car or disrespects their family.

You never even met my sister. I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I have no reason to breathe anymore," the letter says, without naming any person in particular.

It added: "You chose to be away from me on Valentine's Day. You promised me ... once we made it to one year, we would get engaged. All I wanted was you and happiness. You took both away from me. I have nothing left in this world to live for after this. I wish you had loved me like I loved you. I dreamt of our future and success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone even while with you.

You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this." the letter said.

It goes on to state: "I didn't see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically. If I stay here, I will crave you and miss you. So I am kissing my ten-year career and dreams goodbye." the letter said.

Jiah's sister, Kavita, had found the letter three days after the actor's death in her wallet. Kavita had been searching for some poems written by Jiah to be read out at her prayer meeting when she stumbled onto the letter.

The family now wants to make its contents public as they believe that her "career was not the reason for Jiah ending her life".